I can't take it anymore!!! All of my friends are ignoring me! I'm such a loser. They all have better things to do than listening to my shit and seeing my shitty face...I've been at home lying sick in my bed. Nobody visited me, only one of my friend called me. They hate me! i hate myself too. I need to cut, maybe that would make me feel real again. I'm so weak and still sick, but i wanna go out, I can't stay at home anymore. And my mom thinks I'm still 5 years old. she can't let me grow up already!! that's so sick. she told me she wanted to have a little girl forever. That's why I'm a ruined monster.