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Where do I belong to? To my "friends in school" who never wanna meet me, never invited me to their homes? or to some other "friends" who are obsessed with something (I don't wanna mention it) that I really don't care about...so where?? I feel so fucking lonely, and everything on me hurts. I always feel pain inside and outside too. I'm nervous all the time. I stopped eating again. No breakfast and dinner at all, and trying to eat less lunch. I know it's stupid, but i can't enjoy food at all and then why??!